My students are wonderful, and quirky, and amazing, and I am not being the teacher that they deserve right now.
I’m doing alright. I’m preparing lessons and teaching them. I haven’t missed a class or done anything bad per se, but I’m just not as with it as I normally am. I’m finding it harder to be “on” and to stay “on” during classes. Part of it is that I’m still undecided about Johns Hopkins and I feel like that’s taking up a good portion of my brain power, much like the McAfee antivirus program on my home computer – while it may not be what you are focusing on at the time, it’s slowing everything else down while it’s running in the background. I’m actually doing better with the first graders than the second graders right now, for what might be the first time ever – they’re still in awe of me, whereas to the second graders I’m old hat.
My focus will come back. It always does. I just have to give myself some time to work through everything.