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Em in Asia! 2013-03-20 00:36:08

Wednesday, March 20th, 2013

My students are wonderful, and quirky, and amazing, and I am not being the teacher that they deserve right now.

I’m doing alright. I’m preparing lessons and teaching them. I haven’t missed a class or done anything bad per se, but I’m just not as with it as I normally am. I’m finding it harder to be “on” and to stay “on” during classes. Part of it is that I’m still undecided about Johns Hopkins and I feel like that’s taking up a good portion of my brain power, much like the McAfee antivirus program on my home computer – while it may not be what you are focusing on at the time, it’s slowing everything else down while it’s running in the background. I’m actually doing better with the first graders than the second graders right now, for what might be the first time ever – they’re still in awe of me, whereas to the second graders I’m old hat.

My focus will come back. It always does. I just have to give myself some time to work through everything.

Em in Asia! 2013-03-13 23:16:34

Wednesday, March 13th, 2013

I can’t concentrate.

Yesterday I had no school, so I hiked a mountain in Gwangju (the nearby city). It was nice. It was a cold, dreary, wet Wednesday afternoon which meant that the trails were deserted. I plugged in my iPod and went up and down hills, squelching in the mud, nodding to random people that I saw. I saw chipmunks, trees, rocks, and the Gwangju city skyline. The forests, paths, and lack of people reminded me of Virginia, and it was nice. I arrived at one of the peaks of the mountain range by accident – my co-teacher had told me to follow a trail to a certain point, and I continued on because I wasn’t tired. I got to the end, looked around, and the world opened up below me. It was made all the more exhilarating because I was alone; there was no one there to chat to or to be distracted by. On the way back down I got lost, as per usual, and ended up walking down the entire mountain instead of halfway down to the temple at which I had originally disembarked. With the help of a friendly older man I found another bus stop and made it off the mountain.

It was cold, it was wet, I was alone, I was lost, but I was oddly content.

Last night I found out that I had been accepted to Johns Hopkins SAIS Masters program in Korea Studies. SAIS is the premiere IR program in the nation. I didn’t receive any fellowships or scholarships. I don’t know what to do, and I am no longer at peace. If anyone has any advice for me, I would greatly appreciate it.